Image description: A cloaked woman holds a globe of light, from which emanate a galaxy of stars.
So many things going on. Posts stream through my head, coalescing and dissipating in shimmering torrents. When I’m out driving, a thesis may rise above the rest, building upon itself until I begin to hope that I will hang onto it long enough to write it down… and then I get home, and it evaporates into twinkling motes of faery laughter.
In therapy this week I bemoaned the lack of energy I have had to put into writing and business-y things for the last several months. Even my sparkling new newsletter sent out two issues and then went on hiatus. I’m overflowing with painting ideas but have so little time to put them into practice. I was even considering shutting down Fire Sea Studios for good. My therapist wisely pointed out, though, that it’s not that I’m not doing anything; even with all the demands on my time I am still painting, still thinking and plotting and absorbing inspiration. My muse follows its own cycles, and I have learned many times that attempts to force it to follow my conscious agenda will only result in frustration. Rather than wasting energy fretting about what I’m not doing, I will simply do what I am doing and see where it takes me.
So yes. I have been quiet here and don’t know when that will change. But I am still working, painting, reading, plotting, dreaming. Marinating, as the subject line says.
As long as I’m here, however, I will finish this off with the barest of nods to the winter holiday season, pointing out that my “Source of Light” greeting cards over at RedBubble make lovely Yule or Solstice cards :)
Date: December 6, 2011